Realize?

Been busy these days on my work, realize many things that I ignore for so long, I know I ain't mature, I never think for my career, what I know is only party and shopping, such a failure, well, I'm just a 23 years old lady, who have beautiful family and friends, nothing much to worry in life, life is beautiful to me, so why am I suppose to think for my career? Story start with my manager take leave for 1 week, and I have to do part of her job, imagine a fresh graduate that only work for 3 months there, is sooooo stressful! I'm not talking about the component of work, but the leadership, the management, and the decision making. I realize that I was too depends on my manager, whatever I didn't know I'd just ask her, my manager was like spoon feeding me all the time, and this make me can't work independently, now I know its not a good thing, how do I lead people in the future if I continue like this? I'm afraid of making decision because every tiny mistake I made might screw up my trustworthy between my boss, my client or my supplier,I hate failure! Sound macam yes, haha! Anyway I had learn many things during this week which the absence of my manager force me to solve problems myself, but at the same time feels so stress, worry if I couldnt finish my task, worry if I did mistake, as my principle, when my manager trusted me and hand over her job to me, I don't want to disappoint her. One of my colleague said that as a fresh grad, I did things quite well, compare to the ex employee who hold my position last time, I did good job, teehee!!Happy like a bee!! At least, I'm working quite hard to change my bad habit now, trying not to play fb during working hours, thou it's very very hard!

*Sometimes you won't realize things if life was too smooth!



-Fighting for future in progress-