Nuts

A random day with emo mood, Im not happy with something and someone cause when the thought and expectation couldn't reach, there comes disappointment. and I hate it when things happen again and again. So, at the first I thought everything was under controlled and I feel good and satisfied, and things had became out of control very soon and was out of my prediction. Maybe I was wrong, things couldn't be just good and satisfy, we need more than this so that it could last longer. Now that I finnaly believe in gap between 2 different ages, or I'm too sensitive or ego because I thought I'm mature? Well, dont be surprise because I just started with him 3 weeks ago, we are talking about efficient now>.<
Sissy asked that: oh are you in a relationship? I nvr realize that, I thought he was just your friend.
And my close friends are making fun on me: June you have a bf? oh we forgot that. btw who is him? LOL

Cool, I dont really angry with sissy and friends, I feel funny when they keep teasing me, I even laugh with them, cause me myself also feel funny cause they are fking right, they are just saying the truth, and it becomes the funniest joke between us.

Sometimes I doubt that I'm just too lonely to be single, and things doesn't change better even now im in a relationship. I still eat and hang out with my friends alone, I still drink alone, I still walk alone, and I still sleep alone. To be honest I'm just a girl who need a lottttt of attention cause I'm stuck in kind of sickness called "LOA" -lack of attention, and now I failed to attract his attention so I started to feel mad and pissed off and very soon I will continue my ridiculous life and everything blow.

End of the story- lets drink tonight.